4 O' Clock,
another string cut,
another hour jammed,
blue floats around
Because RED is banned!
Stone to dust,
Clay to Ash,
a small metamorphosis,
The intangible clash.
Empty roads,
Balloons of Mud,
The static buzzing
of the black unplugged..
Repeated pages,
of rusty books,
morals caged tightly,
beneath loose bra hooks.
Crumbs of food,
flushed by caffeine,
in floating e-mails,
Is lost the LSD dream...
Another message,
the common noise,
But the child doesn't stop wailing,
no one has repaired his Toys.
Go, Begone..
Another dawn shall rise,
when we shall have our burgers,
with our incoherent fries.
In tomorrow's frames,
we shall wait for Prufrock,
He is sure to arrive,
Before 4O' Clock.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
Paper Bags..
Paper bags full of misery,
Assortments of broken hearts,
Yellow glue and old newspapers,
victims of retail therapy.
In the washed down streets
And muddy alleys,
they cling from fingers manicured,
And hide beneath pretentious sheets.
From one hand to another,
a lot of trespassing,
amongst green notes and black smiles,
They recede further.
The vision of all eyes,
the burden of all hands,
The witnesses to variety,
curious looks and excited cries.
Oh! these Paper Bags and their medley,
Moving restlessly everywhere,
but well, do we really care?
nah..
At least, they are environment friendly!!
Assortments of broken hearts,
Yellow glue and old newspapers,
victims of retail therapy.
In the washed down streets
And muddy alleys,
they cling from fingers manicured,
And hide beneath pretentious sheets.
From one hand to another,
a lot of trespassing,
amongst green notes and black smiles,
They recede further.
The vision of all eyes,
the burden of all hands,
The witnesses to variety,
curious looks and excited cries.
Oh! these Paper Bags and their medley,
Moving restlessly everywhere,
but well, do we really care?
nah..
At least, they are environment friendly!!
Monday, July 07, 2008
FIELDS OF GOLD
The outstretched hand,
The falling rain,
The cloudy eyes,
The pouring skies.
The mute cry,
The shrieking death,
That final wish,
To die in her bed.
Where times would stop,
And hours will burn,
Heaving and choking,
Inside my chest.
She washes my hopes,
As I balm the wounds,
On her back.
She looks not at me,
As we walk the nostalgia track.
She wields her words,
And leaves me behind,
She floats on fogs white,
And the rains make me blind.
I wait for death,
As alone on her bed I lie,
In her boxes I lived,
In her closet shall I die.
And as I close my eyes,
I dream of fields yellow,
Where winters spray froths white,
And rains fill canals hollow.
In those fields now I wander,
Her slave and death’s stray,
And somewhere beneath harvests of gold,
Buried my happiness lay…
The falling rain,
The cloudy eyes,
The pouring skies.
The mute cry,
The shrieking death,
That final wish,
To die in her bed.
Where times would stop,
And hours will burn,
Heaving and choking,
Inside my chest.
She washes my hopes,
As I balm the wounds,
On her back.
She looks not at me,
As we walk the nostalgia track.
She wields her words,
And leaves me behind,
She floats on fogs white,
And the rains make me blind.
I wait for death,
As alone on her bed I lie,
In her boxes I lived,
In her closet shall I die.
And as I close my eyes,
I dream of fields yellow,
Where winters spray froths white,
And rains fill canals hollow.
In those fields now I wander,
Her slave and death’s stray,
And somewhere beneath harvests of gold,
Buried my happiness lay…
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
It Remains....
It’s all that stays,
As everything past my window sways,
Like waters in the fog,
Like clouds of fantasy,
Nothing rests, nothing remains,
But my Solitude.
It sings to me,
Melodies soulful,
While on unknown journeys,
I daily embark.
It gleams at me,
From glasses polished,
When I pass by,
The mighty structures of dreams.
It calls, it beckons
To the empty skies,
And then the rain comes,
And fills my eyes.
It gazes at clusters of people,
Counts their laughter,
And measures their joy,
But it returns back to me,
To hold my hand,
And to well up in my eyes dry.
I leave it in forests thick,
And drown it in wavy seas,
I hang it from my ceiling,
And dig it in groves of archaic trees.
I race with it,
And leave it behind,
Only to find it again within me,
My Solitude.
And now I dance with it,
And float in it,
I sing with it,
And make love to it.
For when everyone leaves me behind,
It alone remains,
My Solitude…
As everything past my window sways,
Like waters in the fog,
Like clouds of fantasy,
Nothing rests, nothing remains,
But my Solitude.
It sings to me,
Melodies soulful,
While on unknown journeys,
I daily embark.
It gleams at me,
From glasses polished,
When I pass by,
The mighty structures of dreams.
It calls, it beckons
To the empty skies,
And then the rain comes,
And fills my eyes.
It gazes at clusters of people,
Counts their laughter,
And measures their joy,
But it returns back to me,
To hold my hand,
And to well up in my eyes dry.
I leave it in forests thick,
And drown it in wavy seas,
I hang it from my ceiling,
And dig it in groves of archaic trees.
I race with it,
And leave it behind,
Only to find it again within me,
My Solitude.
And now I dance with it,
And float in it,
I sing with it,
And make love to it.
For when everyone leaves me behind,
It alone remains,
My Solitude…
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Margins of the Mind
She lay wide awake in her comfortable bed, listening to the peaceful breathing of her man, having just made passionate love to him. And in her open eyes wandered countless thoughts- the ghosts of the past, the phrases of the poem she was currently writing, the impending newspaper article, the voice of her distant sister, the touch of her man, the reveling insanity bursting through her soul… and amid roving streams of consciousness and untamed thoughts hanging from her ceiling, she lay awake.
And as she granted the license to the night to take over her and seize the cratered territories of her mind, she turned towards the wall, a shadowy web of recollections… and as she stared at the green and peeling plaster, there suddenly appeared on its surface three distinct beams of light, three separate tubes of gleam shivering on the wall drowned in darkness.
Her worldly mind reasoned that the light strips are a consequence of some disturbance in the parallel abode, which lay in darkness but shook suddenly with light. And it was this light which now seeped through the iron grates of her semi curtained window and gave the look of a divine god with three eyes to her wall. Yes, the logic of this tamed mind was flawless, yet her nomadic spirit gave her the piercing sensation of being in a prison. Trapped, encapsulated within those three bars, not of neighborly light anymore but of rusting memories and squalid imaginations. Of white, pale women roaming in forests and the voices of dead floating from Spain.
In spite of the increasing itch on her left thigh, she surrendered to the currents of imagination and in some fleeting seconds, her mind stood an unauthorized spectator to an unconnected life. The life of the man living in the house across the street.
White pajamas and a sickly breath, he wandered through the corridors of oblivion, mourning the loss of a sister who was never allowed to be born, reliving the life of a mother who lived to make him the man he was, and thinking about his wife who died without knowing that he survived the war.
Colonel Aushotosh Shankar, lived alone in his house at the age of 83, with a few pieces of useless furniture and a purple scar on his neck as the witness of the war he fought, with commendable bravery but without a cause. He lived awaiting a bravery award which existed only on some green sheets of a dusty register relegated to some corner of a damp office. He lived awaiting a pension which always seemed to be on its way but never quite reached him. And he lived awaiting the call of his daughter who would someday know of his existence. But he awaited all this with a sense of pride. Pride of having relegated the bloody war to the borders alone, not realizing that borders are nothing but elegantly crafted mirrors.
Colonel Shankar was 32 when the war broke out and he hurried to take up his post, leaving his wife and his one month daughter with countless assurances of returning within a week. His perception of his country safely vested in promising politicians’ speeches, flapping flags, proud salutes and patriotic songs. But six years of tiring and dirty war withered all that. They fought waiting for weapons which never came and hope which flickered with every passing day.
But they won, and they were hailed and cheered. Victory only a magnitude of the murders committed. But for the Colonel the delusive victory never really came, and even if it did it went unnoticed. After spending seven and a half months in a hospital swarming with flies, he came home to find it uprooted by some riots which occurred while he was fighting for peace… and with his limp body and bowed head, he walked away, to withdraw from the bank his lifelong savings and buy a solitary apartment in some distant street… the street right across her home.
And as she lay wide awake in her bed that night, she lived every agony of the long years of Colonel Aushotosh Shankar. She withered in pain with every wound the war inflicted on his youthful body and twisted inside with every blow the ruthless fate whipped unto his palms. She with wet eyes made love to his dying spirit and with tensed muscles aroused his limp body. And in these tumultuous seas she turned to grope for her pen, which she always kept under the pillow, to pen down the story of Colonel Aushotosh Shankar.
This Colonel she knew nothing about infact, except his name. The Colonel whose life she lived entrapped in that prison with rods of light. The Colonel who might have gotten up from his sleep to answer the call of nature. But the Colonel who just by switching the lights of his room made her live a life which perhaps he never lived, made her create a world which perhaps he had never dreamt of, made her silently start writing about the adventures lived in the margins of the mind, while her man snored peacefully, tired from the adventures of the night.
And as she granted the license to the night to take over her and seize the cratered territories of her mind, she turned towards the wall, a shadowy web of recollections… and as she stared at the green and peeling plaster, there suddenly appeared on its surface three distinct beams of light, three separate tubes of gleam shivering on the wall drowned in darkness.
Her worldly mind reasoned that the light strips are a consequence of some disturbance in the parallel abode, which lay in darkness but shook suddenly with light. And it was this light which now seeped through the iron grates of her semi curtained window and gave the look of a divine god with three eyes to her wall. Yes, the logic of this tamed mind was flawless, yet her nomadic spirit gave her the piercing sensation of being in a prison. Trapped, encapsulated within those three bars, not of neighborly light anymore but of rusting memories and squalid imaginations. Of white, pale women roaming in forests and the voices of dead floating from Spain.
In spite of the increasing itch on her left thigh, she surrendered to the currents of imagination and in some fleeting seconds, her mind stood an unauthorized spectator to an unconnected life. The life of the man living in the house across the street.
White pajamas and a sickly breath, he wandered through the corridors of oblivion, mourning the loss of a sister who was never allowed to be born, reliving the life of a mother who lived to make him the man he was, and thinking about his wife who died without knowing that he survived the war.
Colonel Aushotosh Shankar, lived alone in his house at the age of 83, with a few pieces of useless furniture and a purple scar on his neck as the witness of the war he fought, with commendable bravery but without a cause. He lived awaiting a bravery award which existed only on some green sheets of a dusty register relegated to some corner of a damp office. He lived awaiting a pension which always seemed to be on its way but never quite reached him. And he lived awaiting the call of his daughter who would someday know of his existence. But he awaited all this with a sense of pride. Pride of having relegated the bloody war to the borders alone, not realizing that borders are nothing but elegantly crafted mirrors.
Colonel Shankar was 32 when the war broke out and he hurried to take up his post, leaving his wife and his one month daughter with countless assurances of returning within a week. His perception of his country safely vested in promising politicians’ speeches, flapping flags, proud salutes and patriotic songs. But six years of tiring and dirty war withered all that. They fought waiting for weapons which never came and hope which flickered with every passing day.
But they won, and they were hailed and cheered. Victory only a magnitude of the murders committed. But for the Colonel the delusive victory never really came, and even if it did it went unnoticed. After spending seven and a half months in a hospital swarming with flies, he came home to find it uprooted by some riots which occurred while he was fighting for peace… and with his limp body and bowed head, he walked away, to withdraw from the bank his lifelong savings and buy a solitary apartment in some distant street… the street right across her home.
And as she lay wide awake in her bed that night, she lived every agony of the long years of Colonel Aushotosh Shankar. She withered in pain with every wound the war inflicted on his youthful body and twisted inside with every blow the ruthless fate whipped unto his palms. She with wet eyes made love to his dying spirit and with tensed muscles aroused his limp body. And in these tumultuous seas she turned to grope for her pen, which she always kept under the pillow, to pen down the story of Colonel Aushotosh Shankar.
This Colonel she knew nothing about infact, except his name. The Colonel whose life she lived entrapped in that prison with rods of light. The Colonel who might have gotten up from his sleep to answer the call of nature. But the Colonel who just by switching the lights of his room made her live a life which perhaps he never lived, made her create a world which perhaps he had never dreamt of, made her silently start writing about the adventures lived in the margins of the mind, while her man snored peacefully, tired from the adventures of the night.
Thursday, May 01, 2008
THE JAW
He walked with his stick in his hand,
No crowds he saw,
He was mum and tight-lipped,
The old man sought to repair his Jaw.
To the iron smith he went,
Found hammers were too heavy to handle,
His tongue was not malleable,
His jaw was not metal.
The stone cutter he now approached,
But his weapons gave him a chill,
He clutched his jaw tighter,
To save it from the cutting drill.
The marble moulder was his next stop,
Since both whites struck a chord,
But the machine he found too big,
His jaw, alas! Was not so broad.
To the woodcutter and the farmer he went,
Seeking help for his despair,
They shook their heads in dismay,
His jaw they couldn’t repair.
Down on the ground he slumped,
He was left in his sorrows to pine,
For how was he now to savor,
His hot chicken and cold wine?
He lay there motionless,
Dreaming of salmon and roasted fish,
Pies and cakes floated in his eyes,
How was he to have his mutton dish?
Thinking of worlds exotic,
A heavy sigh he drew,
He had the tongue to taste,
But no jaw to chew!
Oh god! To where should he go,
Is all the joy from his life to be thus taken?
Oh! Will he never be able to relish,
His roast mushrooms and fried bacon?
He started walking slowly,
His mind torn while his heart bled,
He didn’t know where he was going,
But the aroma of food led him ahead.
He reached a thatched shack,
Jaw in his hand and stomach empty,
He saw freshly baked jam tarts,
And chicken roasting in plenty.
A slight gleam flickered in his eye,
But disappeared when he picked up the knife,
He sat there sobbing,
And told the cook about his strife.
Oh! So that’s the matter old man,
The cook said as he gathered his cutleries,
He rapidly built a new jaw,
Joining forks with oil and grease.
The old man looked in awe,
As his jaw was being assembled,
He fell at cook’s feet,
As with happiness he trembled.
The cook smiled and set the table,
And they both ate with utter delight,
How true it is that only a connoisseur,
Can understand a fellow’s plight…
No crowds he saw,
He was mum and tight-lipped,
The old man sought to repair his Jaw.
To the iron smith he went,
Found hammers were too heavy to handle,
His tongue was not malleable,
His jaw was not metal.
The stone cutter he now approached,
But his weapons gave him a chill,
He clutched his jaw tighter,
To save it from the cutting drill.
The marble moulder was his next stop,
Since both whites struck a chord,
But the machine he found too big,
His jaw, alas! Was not so broad.
To the woodcutter and the farmer he went,
Seeking help for his despair,
They shook their heads in dismay,
His jaw they couldn’t repair.
Down on the ground he slumped,
He was left in his sorrows to pine,
For how was he now to savor,
His hot chicken and cold wine?
He lay there motionless,
Dreaming of salmon and roasted fish,
Pies and cakes floated in his eyes,
How was he to have his mutton dish?
Thinking of worlds exotic,
A heavy sigh he drew,
He had the tongue to taste,
But no jaw to chew!
Oh god! To where should he go,
Is all the joy from his life to be thus taken?
Oh! Will he never be able to relish,
His roast mushrooms and fried bacon?
He started walking slowly,
His mind torn while his heart bled,
He didn’t know where he was going,
But the aroma of food led him ahead.
He reached a thatched shack,
Jaw in his hand and stomach empty,
He saw freshly baked jam tarts,
And chicken roasting in plenty.
A slight gleam flickered in his eye,
But disappeared when he picked up the knife,
He sat there sobbing,
And told the cook about his strife.
Oh! So that’s the matter old man,
The cook said as he gathered his cutleries,
He rapidly built a new jaw,
Joining forks with oil and grease.
The old man looked in awe,
As his jaw was being assembled,
He fell at cook’s feet,
As with happiness he trembled.
The cook smiled and set the table,
And they both ate with utter delight,
How true it is that only a connoisseur,
Can understand a fellow’s plight…
TICKING ON...
Towards the setting sun I moved,
While its embers lit the alleys I pass,
I keep my hands in my pocket,
As I stare out of my asylum’s glass.
The golden of the god diminished in the distance,
And the blue of the lakes died,
The old man silently waved me goodbye,
Stony faced and teary eyed.
I knew him not,
But we both each other knew,
We both lived a lie,
But our insanity was true.
Ahead my wheels and vehicle lurched,
While my vision backwards gazed,
And on rocky roads,
The terrains of memories it traced.
Sirens shrieked and lights beamed,
I knew they were chasing me,
But they buzzed past me too,
They were racing to be free.
I clutched my cloth to my bosom,
My alienation I tried to hide,
By doing what the world does,
And by plastering black with white.
Faces on the road merged with the skies,
The winds didn’t ruffle their hair,
But wild torrents pulled me ahead,
As night descended and devils pulled me near.
Entangled in illusions, ahead I went,
But my way I couldn’t find,
For even though time moved forward,
My hour I left behind.
While its embers lit the alleys I pass,
I keep my hands in my pocket,
As I stare out of my asylum’s glass.
The golden of the god diminished in the distance,
And the blue of the lakes died,
The old man silently waved me goodbye,
Stony faced and teary eyed.
I knew him not,
But we both each other knew,
We both lived a lie,
But our insanity was true.
Ahead my wheels and vehicle lurched,
While my vision backwards gazed,
And on rocky roads,
The terrains of memories it traced.
Sirens shrieked and lights beamed,
I knew they were chasing me,
But they buzzed past me too,
They were racing to be free.
I clutched my cloth to my bosom,
My alienation I tried to hide,
By doing what the world does,
And by plastering black with white.
Faces on the road merged with the skies,
The winds didn’t ruffle their hair,
But wild torrents pulled me ahead,
As night descended and devils pulled me near.
Entangled in illusions, ahead I went,
But my way I couldn’t find,
For even though time moved forward,
My hour I left behind.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
I lay there in his arms....
I lay there in his arms,
His skin against mine,
And his warmth feeding my icy form,
And the morning passed by,
Waving at me from beyond my window.
I lay there in his arms,
While She his mind ruled,
And I his flesh aroused,
And the scorching afternoon passed by,
Burning more the marks he gave on my chest…
I lay there in his arms,
Entwined into his body,
While his soul made love to Her,
And he mumbled desire to me,
And the evening passed by,
Painting the horizons orange,
And leaving its embers to glow in us…
I lay there in his arms,
And he twisted inside me,
Her face behind his closed eyes,
And my palms in his closed fists,
And in came the night,
The intoxication of the rhythm,
And the unfurling of desires wild…
I lay there in his arms,
And he caressed my supine form,
While his fingers touched Her body,
And the dawn cracked its whip,
Dwarfs of sleep crowded our brows,
And then danced the reluctant dreams of love….
I lay there in his arms,
Tired from adventures countless,
But his mind still fresh with Her voice,
And then came the morning,
Through our guarded windows,
And rubbed our drowsy eyes.
It’s another day today,
No longer do I lie in his arms,
But his soul still lies in Her box,
Today, I lie in bed claiming love to another,
Like he did claim love to me,
While I lay there in his arms….
His skin against mine,
And his warmth feeding my icy form,
And the morning passed by,
Waving at me from beyond my window.
I lay there in his arms,
While She his mind ruled,
And I his flesh aroused,
And the scorching afternoon passed by,
Burning more the marks he gave on my chest…
I lay there in his arms,
Entwined into his body,
While his soul made love to Her,
And he mumbled desire to me,
And the evening passed by,
Painting the horizons orange,
And leaving its embers to glow in us…
I lay there in his arms,
And he twisted inside me,
Her face behind his closed eyes,
And my palms in his closed fists,
And in came the night,
The intoxication of the rhythm,
And the unfurling of desires wild…
I lay there in his arms,
And he caressed my supine form,
While his fingers touched Her body,
And the dawn cracked its whip,
Dwarfs of sleep crowded our brows,
And then danced the reluctant dreams of love….
I lay there in his arms,
Tired from adventures countless,
But his mind still fresh with Her voice,
And then came the morning,
Through our guarded windows,
And rubbed our drowsy eyes.
It’s another day today,
No longer do I lie in his arms,
But his soul still lies in Her box,
Today, I lie in bed claiming love to another,
Like he did claim love to me,
While I lay there in his arms….
SEEKING ANSWERS…
Their hungry eyes look at me,
Every time down the street I walk,
A thousand suns burn my feet,
As their helpless questions my mind knock.
Naked feet they run,
Eyeing kites but chasing dreams,
Their hunger still doesn’t leave them,
In their open mouths it gleams.
Raw, clawing and supine,
The devils of hunger scratch their veins,
The haven’t tasted the pleasures of the tongue,
The cant distinguish rice from grains.
Every time their hungry eyes look at me,
My destiny they do question,
Their palms have no fate,
Gaping eyes and begging hands fall in their portion.
Answers, Answers, Answers I seek,
My search wanders in all directions,
No doors open, no green do I see,
No Cross answers my questions.
Towards the skies I stare,
Expecting That force to extend his benevolent hand,
For He, I heard, gives equally to all,
But no silver thunder roars from heavens,
And without answers on dry land I stand.
I leave not the priest’s door unknocked,
To him I do their plight present,
He touched his chest and uttered a prayer,
And inside his warm abode he went.
The leader’s attention now I brought,
To the plague of his growing riches,
He scorns at my surly looks,
And his hand his heavy pocket reaches.
I came to you and went to him too,
Putting forth their blank points,
You listen and revert back to your world,
But not without donating two coins.
So alone now I walk this poor street,
And with bleary eyes look at this monstrous cancer,
Their piercing questions bruise my soul,
But my tears remain their Only answer…..
Every time down the street I walk,
A thousand suns burn my feet,
As their helpless questions my mind knock.
Naked feet they run,
Eyeing kites but chasing dreams,
Their hunger still doesn’t leave them,
In their open mouths it gleams.
Raw, clawing and supine,
The devils of hunger scratch their veins,
The haven’t tasted the pleasures of the tongue,
The cant distinguish rice from grains.
Every time their hungry eyes look at me,
My destiny they do question,
Their palms have no fate,
Gaping eyes and begging hands fall in their portion.
Answers, Answers, Answers I seek,
My search wanders in all directions,
No doors open, no green do I see,
No Cross answers my questions.
Towards the skies I stare,
Expecting That force to extend his benevolent hand,
For He, I heard, gives equally to all,
But no silver thunder roars from heavens,
And without answers on dry land I stand.
I leave not the priest’s door unknocked,
To him I do their plight present,
He touched his chest and uttered a prayer,
And inside his warm abode he went.
The leader’s attention now I brought,
To the plague of his growing riches,
He scorns at my surly looks,
And his hand his heavy pocket reaches.
I came to you and went to him too,
Putting forth their blank points,
You listen and revert back to your world,
But not without donating two coins.
So alone now I walk this poor street,
And with bleary eyes look at this monstrous cancer,
Their piercing questions bruise my soul,
But my tears remain their Only answer…..
SCATTERED
Scattering lights and the palace of Satan,
Across rambling tracks I tread,
As the monotonous humming of eagles,
Blots my thoughts and crowds my head.
Past the draught struck wailing windows,
And the wet collapsing walls,
I dwell in the homes of atheists,
Where Eve sells and Adam falls.
The meek whore passes by,
And puts her trembling hands on my breasts,
The next moment receded her into the rain,
But in my soul her agony rests.
Countless dreams crowd the streets,
And in the robe of these insomniac skies,
A thousand prismic lights blend,
And thrive in the white of my eyes.
Amidst the filthy pit,
An infant silently shrieks and wails,
The sea gulps down his pleas,
But his accusation in my bosom prevails.
The muddy paths assume queer turns,
And the tracks I tread become tangents,
I walked towards the untamed tides,
Me not Me, but a Million Fragments…
Across rambling tracks I tread,
As the monotonous humming of eagles,
Blots my thoughts and crowds my head.
Past the draught struck wailing windows,
And the wet collapsing walls,
I dwell in the homes of atheists,
Where Eve sells and Adam falls.
The meek whore passes by,
And puts her trembling hands on my breasts,
The next moment receded her into the rain,
But in my soul her agony rests.
Countless dreams crowd the streets,
And in the robe of these insomniac skies,
A thousand prismic lights blend,
And thrive in the white of my eyes.
Amidst the filthy pit,
An infant silently shrieks and wails,
The sea gulps down his pleas,
But his accusation in my bosom prevails.
The muddy paths assume queer turns,
And the tracks I tread become tangents,
I walked towards the untamed tides,
Me not Me, but a Million Fragments…
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